One year ago... on one day... one six letter word...
My world as I knew it to be. . .
C... ame crashing down, stopping my breath, unable to believe
A... ll of a sudden feeling so helpless, so not in control, so unsure of everything
N... ever thinking it would be me, even though there are so many, but still asking why?
C... ouldn't imagine leaving all the people I love so, it's not my time, I have so much more to do, don't I?
E... very ounce of my being feeling so scared... so frightened about the road ahead of me
R...eaching out and holding on to my extraordinary family and friends who kept me from falling
One year ago... on one day... one six letter word...
Turning my life upside down, yet trying to except what it was and how I would fight
The doctors, the tests, the waiting. . .
Digging deep inside... to be strong, to fight, to be in control
Yet I still had questions deep in my soul... where no one could hear, why me? What could I have done differently?
If I had to be the one for all the other women in my life, than so be it
And always holding on to my extraordinary family and friends to keep from falling
One year ago... on one day... one six letter word...
The treatments, the effects, the inevitable
Watching each hair fall, first slowly, than much to quickly
Once again feeling so powerless and so not in control
I needed to fight back, to be able to make a choice
Steadying my hand on the razor, I watched as my hair disappeared
And in some strange way I felt empowered, a new strength, and the determination to. . .
Dig deep inside... to be strong, to fight, to have the control
And always holding on to my extraordinary family and friends to keep from falling
One year ago... on one day... one six letter word...
Counting the days for each treatment to be done
Believing it's killing the bad while passing over the healthy
Getting through the bad days by remembering the many good ones
Digging deep inside... to be strong, to fight, to be in control
And always holding on to my extraordinary family and friends to keep from falling
One year ago... on one day... one six letter word...
Accepting that this journey has changed me in ways that I still don't fully understand
Knowing that attitude is as important as the fight
Reinforcing that I am very fortunate in so many ways
And knowing that I have extraordinary family and friends. . .
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Ok...your title. Ugh. And your sister thought I was emotional before . . . I'm a wreck right now!!! (Sniff. Sniff.)
ReplyDeleteBut Lynn, you did it. You have conquered! And to put that "one six letter word" into words is empowering, isn't it? Your thoughts, your fears, your wonders and worries. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you one year ago -- I have two good excuses! But I'm so glad I'm here for you now -- listening and holding on to every last word. I keep reading over your last stanza: that is the mantra to cherish. Powerful.
You amaze me every day: Your courage, your strength, your willingness to put other's needs before your own, your laughter, and now, of course, your writing. YOU are inspiring.
Thank you for sharing.
Lynn - Wow. A year since that day. You are one AMAZING woman - we all watched you be strong for yourself and we fed our souls from your strength. I'm SO glad I get to work with someone so strong, so thoughtful, so incredible!!
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